That Crazy Pentecostal Girl

                                See this here sprayer do dad? It literally made my day. Its hump day and I was feeling dragged ready for the day to be over, heck ready for the week to be over. See my office smells like crap. I am not even exaggerating. Its right by the bathroom and literally smells like doo doo ery' single day. I can spray stuff all day and it does me no good. So I asked about getting me something to make my room smell good and the parts lady shows up with this today. Ask and you shall receive. (Matthew 7:7)  Now I realize this is just a silly story and this is just smelly good do dad, but that scripture is become more and more real and evident in my life. See awhile back my husband started praying that we could give more in tithes and offering. Seems like a simple prayer, but what that meant for us is that we would be making more thus able to give more. And guess what? Go...

I am Apostolic Pentecostal. Born and raised. I've seen the good, I've seen the not so pretty. When I was 12 I felt called into ministry. What that all entailed I wasn't too sure, but as time went on I knew God had big plans for me. One of which was to preach.  As I got older obviously the desire for a relationship became a priority and one I took very seriously might I add. I had my heart set I finding a preacher. Not because I wanted the name or had some wild desire to be a pastors wife, but because long ago I heard preacher, by the name of Tim Gaddy, preach this message on the 2 nd  Most Important Decision You'll Ever Make. The first most important decision you'll ever make is the decision whether or not to serve God. The second most important decision was whom you would marry. He told story of young girl who fell in love with a boy who was not in church and ultimately it was her demise, but he went on to tell us that you need to marry someone whose ministry ma...

In 2013 an Australian man invented the word selfie and it went viral.  Since then it has been used across the world and even inducted into the dictionary.  Webster describes it as  an image of oneself taken by oneself using a digital camera especially for posting on social networks Since this word, concept or whatever it is became a thing, preachers and youth committees from every religion have used it in sermons and at conferences around the world to promote selfless behavior. Less of yourself and more of God.  Which is a great concept and I agree with %100, but I'm about to propose a whole other concept. Unlike most, I'm all for this selfie generation and here is why...  Over 80 percent of 10-year-old girls are afraid of being fat. By middle school, 40-70 percent of girls are dissatisfied with two or more parts of their body, and body satisfaction hits rock bottom between the ages of 12 and 15. 7 out of 10 girls believe they are ...

       Life will never be easy.  Even if you start coming to church and living for God.  Life is not easy. God never said it would be.  But some of us have, and are, going through things that are harder than others. I don't know your story, but I know mine.  And like me, some of you believe this to be one of the hardest things you have and ever will have to go through. You've prayed and cried your eyes out to the point that your knees are bloodshot red and aching from being on them for so long and your eyes burn from all the tears.  You've fasted, searched the bible for answers, and sought out guidance.  But nevertheless none of it seems to be bringing you an answer or any peace.  You are at a crossroads in your life.  You're flesh and spirit are in battle with one another.  The ultimate choice, the only choice you think you have... Stay in church or leave and give up.  I have a friend...

 Have you heard of Joseph? He's the one who interpreted dreams and was sold into slavery by his brothers before he became Pharaoh's right hand man, but before all that he had a dream of his own. He spent 13 years as a slave and prisoner before he ever saw his dreams come true though.  It could have been really easy for Joseph to be angry, bitter and upset with God, but he never was. In fact he always had a good attitude and although he was waiting on his promises he allowed God to use him countless times. Genesis 37-41  He waited 13 years to see his promises fulfilled. How many years have you been waiting?  How has your attitude to been about waiting? What have you been doing while waiting? When I was 12 I felt called to ministry. For the past 11 years I've been trying to fulfill that calling, but failed. I was hurt, led astray and fought so hard to prove myself too many times. But yet this dream that I once had was becoming less of a reality....

A while back I prayed a prayer that forever changed my life.  I prayed for God to mold me and shape me into His image.  And he answered my prayer.  For the past 6 months or so God has be chiseling away. So don't ever pray for God to mold you.... It hurts.  It's not fun.  I'm learning that I am further away from perfection then I had realized.  but in my weakness God is made strong.  And I know that in the long run it will be worth it.  God has big plans for me.  Bigger then I'm willing to admit sometimes.  Bigger then I really believe.  And I can't get there with the old me.  I can't get there on my own at all.  God is equipping me.  It may hurt.  It may be no fun,  but a masterpiece is being formed.  God's masterpiece.  Don't ever pray for God to mold you... unless you're ready for your brokenness to be made beautiful  and to be used of...

     We are never promised tomorrow, but I'm sure most of assume or at least plan as if tomorrow will happen inevitably. I don't mean to be morbid. I'm just saying death is never planned. I've realized that more recently than ever. I've personally only had one person super close to me die. That was my Great Grandpa. I've seen death my whole life, but never really experienced the pain. Still haven't really, but lately I've just seen more death than I wanted to. More children dying, which breaks my heart, but one really struck a cord in my soul and I can't get it off my mind.     I personally didn't even know the young man. He was 19 and got an accident on his way to church. People whom I'm close with knew him well and his life has touched so many. I was awestruck by the amount of people who posted about him and what they posted. Also, the amount of people that attended his viewing and funeral. It was something like 4,000 and a quarter of that...