If I were gone tomorrow...

     We are never promised tomorrow, but I'm sure most of assume or at least plan as if tomorrow will happen inevitably. I don't mean to be morbid. I'm just saying death is never planned. I've realized that more recently than ever. I've personally only had one person super close to me die. That was my Great Grandpa. I've seen death my whole life, but never really experienced the pain. Still haven't really, but lately I've just seen more death than I wanted to. More children dying, which breaks my heart, but one really struck a cord in my soul and I can't get it off my mind.
    I personally didn't even know the young man. He was 19 and got an accident on his way to church. People whom I'm close with knew him well and his life has touched so many. I was awestruck by the amount of people who posted about him and what they posted. Also, the amount of people that attended his viewing and funeral. It was something like 4,000 and a quarter of that at the funeral. The words that were said were nothing, but positive, uplifting, and beautiful. Videos were posted of him singing that just left you in tears, even if you did not know him. I never met him, but my life was touched. They say he wanted to be a preacher, well he preached to thousands, including myself.

Look at the lives he made a difference in. Look how much he was loved.  It got me thinking...

We spend so much time planning for the future we get lost in the now.

I am currently attending school, working 40 hours a week at a job where I'm unappreciated, and I want to do more for God, but opportunity is lacking. I keep telling myself my job is only temporary, I'm almost done with school, one day I'll have a degree, one day I'll be a preacher, one day I'll do this, one day I'll do that, but if I were to pass away today and all of those things never happened, what would my life say. Would it say I was a good friend, and loving wife to my awesome husband? Would it say I was merciful and gracious? Would it say I was a prayer warrior, soul winner, or a faithful servant? Would it say I loved God or would it say I spent to much time on earthly matters? I could have loved more, could have prayed more, could have done more.

I recently watched this movie. It was one of those Christian, low budget ones. You know the ones with horrible acting and great message for the whole family. I couldn't even tell you what the name of the movie was, but the story was about this women who spent her time trying to find happiness in status, building a family, and trying to keep things going as planned, but she found herself unfocused and unappreciated, and with a family and social life that was falling apart. She for years just jumped from one faze to the next faze in her life. She thought getting married would bring her happiness, then having kids, and career, but she found that sometimes just being content in knowing you are a child of God she be enough.

I myself need to learn that lesson. Life will happen, but in the meantime I need to enjoy the life I have and live it to the fullest, because you never know what tomorrow holds.