Busy Bee

Life is Stressful

I'm going non stop all day, every day.

Mon: 8-12 school, 12-1:30 work, 1:30-2:20 school, 2:30-3:30 work, 5-7 work

Tues: work 12-2 and then my other job 3-11

Wednesday: 6:45-8 work, 8-2 school, 5-7 work, 7-9 church

Thursday: 9-3 other job, 5-7 work

Friday: 6:45-8 work, 8-12 school, 12-1:30 work, 1:30 - 2:20 school, 3-11 other job

Saturday: other job 3-11

Sunday:church

When I do I have a social life?

I DON'T

When do I clean my room?

I DON'T

When do I sleep?

I DON'T!!!

Am I stressed?

YES!!!!

But I know God has a plan, I'm doing this all for him. I think that's really what is getting me down. I putting all this time into making money so I can be here, but I'm not really here...I'm always working:(

I've been working on this battered women shelter ministry for a month now. We finally settled things and are started a 4 week session every Tuesday night....I work every Tuesday night:(

So, needless to say I'm pretty devastated.

Lord, tell me what to do. Give me the strength and the patience to deal with this hectic life of mine. I know it's your will for me to be so help me to not grow weary in well doing.

Well, y'all pray for me!!!

Thanks<3

Love,

Ally

Break the Silence

So, I'm about to address the 600lb purple ape in the room that no one likes to talk about!

LUST & ADDICTION TO PORNO

I have met very few men in my life who have not at one point in time been addicted to pornography. Men are drawn by visuals. It's a proven fact. So, many times when you hear that a man was looking at porno you think nothing of it. That is his human nature.

But did you know that 40% percent of the porno watched online is actually viewed by woman.

NEWS FLASH

{WOMAN DEAL WITH LUST TOO}

The difference is we never talk about it becuase one, we figure no other woman deals with, second, it's not common, and third, people are going to think we are crazy. Especially as a christian woman, but fact is, YOU'RE NOT ALONE. We just aren't open about it.

I'm one of these woman.

Since I can remember I've delt with it. Without going into much detail I just want to show you it's not uncommon. Because I always thought it was. I thought I was some kind of freak of nature, that I had an overactive sexual desire, and that I was alone. I never talked about it with anyone and thus never delt with it. It was just always going to be something I struggled with.

Did I want this? Did I want to be lustfull. No of course not, but it seemed no matter how much I prayed, no matter how much I tried to stop, I just could not fight this battle.

It wasn't till I got to Gateway believe it or not that I started to really be able to overcome. In fact very recently. I came to a realization that I wasn't alone! It was so refreshing to be able to tell someone, to let it up off my chest, and for them to understand.

I WASN'T ALONE!

Am I still lustful? Yes, but I'm learning to overcome it and Im seeing progress. I'm stronger and at peace about it.

2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.

I'm not perfect. We all have come short of the glory of God.

BUT YOUR NOT ALONE!

God will give you the strength to overcome.

You don't have to fight these battles alone and thinking your the only girl who deals with this.

LETS TALK ABOUT IT

...believe me when I say it helps!

With Love,

Ally