Recently my school had a huge music conference called
WORSHIP ARTS
Two whole days of classes with the some amazing, talented, well know musicians, song writers, singers and music ministers. A night service that showcases Apostolic music from the best of the best. All leading up to the live recording of Urshan's choir, chorale, and United.
Truth be told....I wasn't looking forward to it.
I'm in choir and chorale, but I knew I had to take off two days of work and put all this extra time into it and I just really didn't want to.
Mainly because I don't feel appreciated and I didn't feel like giving my time to them.
It was the wrong attitude to have.
I was envious. Jealous even.
Not of peoples talents, but that mine wasn't recognized.
Like I said I had the wrong attitude.
I got set straight though.
See since I've been here at Urshan I have been tremendously humbled.
I thought I was going to walk up into this school and be the coolest, most talented, gift they have ever had. I don't where I got off thinking I was going to be some hot shot, but no worries the Lord knocked me off my high horse.
For the longest time I was so upset about it though.
That Urshan wasn't all I wanted it to be.
That I wasn't really involved.
My talent wasn't really acknowledged.
That I didn't really have many friends there.
But I was in chapel one day a couple weeks ago and the Lord started speaking to me.
Its not about me and although this is something I've known since the beginning time, He revealed it to me in whole new way.
I think that its MY talent, MY personality, MY calling...It's God.
And in order for me to have His anointing in all I do I need to realize this.
The only reason I can sing is because God gave me that ability.
The only reason I can preach is because God gives me the words and wisdom to do so. How can I have anointing and be used if I think of it as my own ability.
So along with this new sense of humility I have realized that the people who are used and who do have all the friends in the world are just as blessed as I am.
No need to be jealous, no need to be envious or upset.
I have friends, I have family and I still have this calling that for some reason God has so graciously given me.
I will lean on his promises for they are forever and amen!
I am sorry for those who I was jealous of. I know you don't know who are and probably won't even read this, but I am proud of you and I hope the best in your life.
God Bless!
With Love,
Ally
