Sometimes I Wake Up Unhappy

I JUST GOT MARRIED! 

My wedding was beautiful. 

Everything I hoped for and more! 

And married life has been great. 

Better than great!

I love my life. 

I have an awesome job,

A loving family, 

And a great church family too! 

Really I have nothing to complain about.

So why the title of this blog? 

Why do sometimes I wake up without a smile? 

I'm going to be honest sometimes I wonder "What if"

Lets be real...dreams don't always come true.

Unfortunately we don't continually live in Disney World. 

When I was kid I wanted to grow up and be a doctor and a missionary to Australia.

I definitely won't ever be a doctor and the whole being a missionary is looking more and more unlikely as time goes on.

I occasionally wonder what my life would be like if I had ...

Finished college

Waited to get married

Stayed in my home town

More money 

Less fat

Ect.

Here is the thing God knows every move I make

In fact they were ordained by Him.

So when I start thinking "What if" 

I start think well everything happens for a reason

I am in God's perfect will

And He must have something far better planned for my life! 

The Bible says in Psalms 37:4

Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

And later on in that chapter it says

    I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. Psalms 37:25

So why don't I have that college degree, that four bedroom, two story house with a wrap around porch and Mercedes Benz in the driveway sitting on 5 acres of land, and why don't I look like a model! 

I think Isaiah 55 explains it best 

⁸ For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.
⁹ For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

I may never know the "what if", but I can wake up with a smile on my face knowing that God knows exactly what he is doing and by counting my blessing instead of counting the downfalls and shortcomings! 


Philippians 4:8 
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Love,
Ally