I remember when I first started talking about going to Gateway. A lot of people told me to be careful because a lot of people go there and change for the worst. They make the wrong friends and the ministry they once had, they no longer feel called to it. I was told from many to not be naive in believing that everyone there was there for the right reasons. I understood them, but didn't take it to heart, but man they wern't kidding. It seriously suprises me how many fake people there are, and how many people who call themselves christians, but don't truely act like Christians.
That isn't all that suprises me. Its not all I thought it was going to be. I recieved a work study, which I felt so blessed to have only to find out i'm working 20 hours a week, double shifts Monday through Thursday and a shift on Sunday and I don't have time for another job becuase of school. I also am always late for church because I work till 7.
I HATE BEING LATE FOR CHURCH!!!
There are many other things that have not been all I had expect, but despite the dissapointment there has been some good things that I didn't expect either.
I learn something new everyday. I have these classes that are insane like Pentecostal Theology, and Old Testament that I'm not even sure how i'm going to pass, but I love going to because lessons are so good. We pray before every class, I love that!
I've come to realize that I can easily fall into this state of complacency here. Go to class where I learn about God, go to church, pray the same prayer. Think "Oh I'm at Gateway I don't have to try any harder at this relationship with God stuff", but really I need to try harder. I want to grow daily. I want to leave changed...for the better. I've also come to realize waking up a few minutes earlier every morning and going to the chapel to pray has made a huge difference on my day to day expereince. It gives me patience about all the stuff that hasn't been what I expected and helps me to stay strong and to grow everyday.
I'm loving Gateway more and more everyday!
And I'm so excited see what all God has planned for my life. I know that is why I'm here so no reason to worry about the small things! God wants me here lol
With Love,
Ally<3
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