That Crazy Pentecostal Girl

When I decide to write a blog it usually is not just one thing that leads me to do so. Usually its a slew of moments, situations, epiphanies and so on that make me say "ok God I hear you". This time was no different, in fact, because I've been so busy it took multiple things to get my attention. One of those things was a simple Facebook post that caught my attention, and I shared. It talked about ministry and how ministry is every day. Its not just about preaching a sermon, or singing a song at church. It it's not partial to the pulpit. It goes beyond that. It starts with being like Jesus and loving people and sharing the gospel in the streets and in my opinion that is even more important. Another thing is just everything going on in our world today. There is so much hurt, and hate and ultimately the world doesn't need another preacher or a great choir singer, they need Christians to act like Christ and to love them and show them compassion. Anyways the third thi...

I've been having specific people and burdens come to my heart during my prayer time. I've felt peoples pains, fears, and struggles. Especially during these unprecedented times. During these prayers a simple thought has come to mind. Where is your worth? I felt this was the perfect post for mother's day. As women we have a many things weighing on our shoulders. See we set a standard for ourselves, a goal if you will and we all do it. We want certain things for our lives, for our home, for our children, etc and all the above. Or we feel like we aren't where we should be in life at this point. We haven't accomplished all that we wanted or things just didn't go the way we intended. I find myself comparing myself often to friends that seem to have it more put together and I want that for my home and my family.  It's easy to do and it's not necessarily wrong either. It good for us to want more, be more, have the best for our family, be the best versions of o...

A few years ago I heard someone say something that has always resonated with me. I can't tell you who it was or what they even said verbatim, but the concept has been a steady ringing in my ear every time I go to pray.  They said something along the lines of  Every time I pray and ask God for things I end it with "but God Your will be done".  Now that seems simple enough, sure, but really it is harder then you realize because in saying that, if said truthfully, you are really saying "God even if what I want isn't what you want, that is okay".  I don't know about you, but I've prayed some prayers that I not only wanted, but desired strongly. Prayers that if God didn't take care of it, it would literally break me and I would ultimately suffer. Prayers that I just knew had to happen or else. Prayers that were really me begging and pleading with tears dripping down my face. And every time at the end I tend to say those words, "but God Y...

So I want to address a common misunderstanding. As you all know I affiliate myself with the UPC Pentecostal organization. Recently I've come to realize something. I've heard many folks say they disagree with the doctrine of the UPC, but I don't think they do really. It seems as though what they really disagree with is the standards or "rules" of the UPC, which is fine they are entitled to their beliefs as am I. I'm not here to put anyones beliefs down. I just want to address the misconception of the definition of these two terms. THEY ARE NOT THE SAME THING FOLKS! Let me repeat myself. Doctrine and standards ARE NOT the same! Let me explain. Doctrine definition : a belief or set of beliefs held and taught by a Church, political party, or other group. Standards definition: a level of quality or attainment. Doctrine is what we believe (What the bible teaches) in regards to salvation. Standards are a model by which we live our lives. Although they go hand in h...

Those that know me or think they know me always assume I have this hard exterior. I'm blunt and I come across as aggressive or even mean. I've always seen myself as strong, passionate, honest and empowered, but I know most people don't see it that way. I come across like I just don't care. I don't care about anyone, but me and my people and that I don't care what people think of me. Of course most of that couldn't be farther from the truth, but some of it I've been told it for so long that I believed it and just rolled with it. However, I've changed a lot in the last couple years. A LOT! Although I am still strong, passionate, honest and empowered. I also have become a lot more sensitive. I've, for the past two years, chalked it up to being pregnant and my hormones all out of wack, but I'm not pregnant any more....  I may come across like I don't care, but in fact it's the complete opposite. I care too much. I used to think I just go...

I recently became a mom of 2. I have little boy who just turned 2 and little 8 month old girl. They are my world of course as any good momma would say. But I am also very involved in the ministry of my church and Jesus is my number 1. I'm about to share some facts about ministry and mommy hood that for some reason no one talks about.... IT AIN'T EASY. Heck it ain't even easy to even get us all to church on time and presentable and then sit quietly during church all the while getting spiritually fed. Honestly most services I don't. Most services I'm sitting there managing my children, changing diapers, feeding, and putting them to sleep. All that plus teaching class, or singing on the praise team it doesn't leave much time for a midweek refreshing. And the few short moments where they are quiet and I can finally sit and listen to the preacher don't add up to much at the end of the day. There are many Sundays I find myself questioning what is the poin...