That Crazy Pentecostal Girl

Every year I tell myself next year will be different.  Next year I'll be able to afford all my love ones the best christmas gifts.  Stuff they really want rather then just something to say I thought of you, but I'm broke.  And every year I am back to giving DIY gifts and stuff that doesn't cost much.  I was feeling really bad about it this year, because earlier this year we were making really good money and probably could have afforded some really good gifts, but then my husband went into business for himself and although we aren't doing horrible we are at ground level and still aren't making much profit. So I'm back to creating gifts for everyone.  I say "was feeling bad" because something I came across on Facebook really struck a cord with me.  And it hit me. These gifts I am getting may not cost much, but they cost a lot of my time. Not just the work itself, but I thoughtfully consider each gift. Especially this year. Ther...

Who doesn't love Joanna Gains and Fixer Upper!?  Her sleek, bright and farmhouse designs makes every women want to redo her entire house! Every Women, but me... Yeah I am not a fan! Don't get me wrong it is beautiful and maybe one day when I am rich and have no kids I will consider the look, but for now it is unrealistic, and quite frankly stupid! First of all...  I have two babies. One who just turned 7 months and another who will be 2 this month, both of which are professional mess makers. There are crumbs in the couches, toys sprawled from one end of the house to the other, laundry piled to the ceiling and all breakables are far out of reach.  Why on earth would I have a white or even a beige couch - It would be ruined in t-minus 5 minutes of being in the house? Why would I decorate with fragile, beautiful props through out when my 2 year old will throw it because he thinks it's a ball? Why, please someone tell me why I would paint my walls white just ...

In 2017 I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. It was the quickest labor and birth I've ever heard of. I started having contractions at 6pm went to the hospital at 10pm and at 12am I had him. We named him Cooper Lawayne (middle name after his great grandpa, grandpa and dad). 8 months later I found out I was pregnant again. This one was not planned and to be perfectly honest not really wanted. 2 under 2?  I wasn't prepared for that kind of responsibility, that kind of chaos, but it was what it was and I came to terms with it and eventually was very excited about the little girl to come. May 7th 2019 she arrived, but not without fighting. Lord forbid it would be as easy as my first. A week before she siked us by causing mommy to have contractions, but we stopped at 3cm. Contractions, however did not subside 100%, and on May 7th they got unbearable. We went in about 9am, but once again I would not dilate and baby girl's heart rate kept dropping so a c section was necessary. At ...