I have a peace like no other right now, and just beginning to write this i get teary eyed!
(Tears of Joy)
I'm looking over this past year and I'm overwhelmed at how much I have changed. All for the best of course, but still its in sane.
A year ago I was a senior in high school. I had left Pentecost for a non-denominational church, which don't get me wrong wasn't all bad, but around this time last year I realized something was missing. I had learned a lot from that church, but spiritually I was still weak. I went to Illinois for Christmas and went to my grandma's church. May I remind you this was the first time I had gone to a pentecostal church in over a year and immediately I realized what I had been missing. This may seem small and simple, but I was missing the worship. Holy Ghost filled, tongue talking, good Ole' Pentecostal worship. No holding back, not fake, completely giving every ounce of energy and passion into it. To think I didn't praise God or worship Him like that for a year blows my mind because now you can't hold me down.
When I came back I wish I could say I got right into everything again whole heartily, without question, but the reasons I left were still there and the questions I had still hadn't been answered and to be completely honest I was still bitter in some ways, but I kept at it. I prayed and fasted like no bodies business and you know what I realized it made life so much easier and those things that once bothered me didn't anymore. I was no longer bitter and my questions I had I didn't question anymore. Instead a love grew in my heart for standards and holiness and I came to understand that church isn't about who goes there and whats right or wrong with it. Its about GOD and that is all!
At one point in my life I started to hate church and everything it represented. The temptations and burdens of this world became to heavy and I wasn't getting what I wanted from God, but now oh but now GOD IS SO GOOD!
I mean the smallest things I gave over to God; clothes, time and money and he has given me back so much more; Wisdom, blessings, strength, joy, peace, love ahhh and so much more.
I always wanted to do something for the kingdom of God. Some kinda of ministry. I thought for awhile music, but the more and more I grow ( and I'm not done growing) I realize God has something big for my life. He has called me to some pretty steep and scary heights but I'm up for the challenge!!!!!!
I'm so excited about what God has in store!!!!!!!!!!
I'm at the moment in life where all I can really do is grow. Get to where God wants me to be in our relationship until he opens doors for me to fulfill His plan. So I'm reading my bible, I'm fasting, I'm getting involved at church and I'm praying, praying and praying...and I won't give up and I won't back down<3
With love,
Ally
