Grace Isn't Enough

This week has been one of the worst and life evaluating weeks of my life, and it probably didn't help that the little devil that visits me once a month decided to visit me this week:/

I can't go into detail what came to surface early this week because it's family business and not anyone else's, but I can tell you it was difficult to believe, once i believed it, it still didn't seem real, but it became real and I was angry - I let the sun down on my wrath-Ephesians 4:26

I eventually forgave this person, well at least to their face, but to be completely honest I'm still bitter about the situation and Im hurt

All this went down on Monday. Tuesday I had class. Afterwards I went to my friends work, had lunch, and went shopping for several hours. All this to stay away from home as long as possible. I went to johann's during those several hours, which is where this story really begins. I went back to the patterns table, sat down, looked through some books, minding my own business when this lady comes over and sits across from me and starts some small talk. We talked about sewing for a little while, then talked about what school Im attending, what I'm going for and my plans after community college. She said she wasn't surprised at all that I was going to bible college. Something about I have a sweet spirit and I'm a strong, beautiful young lady and that I would do awesome in ministry- CRAZY WOMAN! lol

Thats not even the craziest part. Next Rachel calls crying and freaking out. I told her it was ok, to calm down, go into her room or on a walk and that I would come get her later. When I hung up the phone the lady asked me if it was family drama. Obviously It was, I shook my head then she said randomly "You need to forgive her"!!!!!!

I never told this lady anything, she had no idea what actually was going on, she doesn't know me or my family yet somehow she knew I needed to forgive someone?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?! FREAKY

She went on to tell me, "Your not promised tomorrow. You don't want to hold things on your heart and die bitter"

♥FORGIVE & FORGET♥

Wednesday night at church we had Bridge, the college and career class. In class we talked about Grace. They asked questions, we discussed what it meant and how it plays a roll in our lives. My question was " Just because you forgive someone, does that really mean you have shown grace if your forgiveness doesn't come with actions?"

I told this person I forgave them, but deep inside I really hadn't and I wasn't going to treat them any better. So , really I wasn't showning grace or maybe I was, but it wasn't enough I needed to change my heart too!

So needless to say I've had an eventfull and lesson filled week and I think God sent me an angel in the craft store lol

A MOMENT I WILL NEVER FORGET and I did FORGIVE!

II Corinthians 12:9

With Love,

Ally

"Back to the Box"

So after hyphen a lot of us college and career kids are pumped! If thats the word you wanna use...i don't know. All I know is we've been talking and talking about making a difference and now we are finally going to do it! Its ganna be

OFF THE WALL!

It started off with My friend Amber and I just chit chatting about how we need change in this church, especially the youth group, over a cup of coffee. We came up with this brilliant idea of having a bible study type thing where we just get together and basically do what we were doing now, talking, but with more people and throw are opinions and idea's out there and just see where it would go from there. So friday night it was set, her house, 7pm... it didn't end till 11!

So, there we were, Amber and I, Lauren-Ashley, Troy, Garison, Chris-Ann, and Bro. & Sis. Barnhill, sitting in the living room talking about...well everything.

We really touched base with how this generation, the college and career age, needs to be an example and mentor to the younger age group.

WE ARE NOT THE CHURCH OF TOMORROW, WE ARE THE CHURCH OF TODAY!

After talking for what seemed only a few minutes, but was actually nearly 5 hours, we came up with some idea's that are going into motion as we speak, and will mold this youth group into the church it will soon be.

This wednesday we are having a prayer and every wedneday before church and possibly Friday night we are going to be praying and we ain't talking bout some measly lil rinky dink prayer were talking about
APOSTOLIC PENTECOSTAL, HOLY ROLLIN JESUS FREAKS GETTING DOWN WITH THE ALMIGHTY, ALL POWERFUL GOD!

Because thats what we are, Holy Rollers, Tongue talkers, crazy worshippers, who have forgotten the basics. Its time we go back to the box, back to the basics, back to REAL UPC WORSHIP! How else can a church grow and prosper, only by prayer and fasting and REAL FIRE<3

Amen

With Love,

Ally

Hyphen 2010

I was a little hesitant this week about going to this function my church held! It didn't really sound appealing and it was $25 that I didn't really feel like spending on something I wasn't sure about, but I was talked into and then my church offered to pay for everyones way so I went and I am soooooo glad I did!

It was a little awkward at first, but by the end it was one of the best services I've ever been to!

I mean it wasn't a jumping around, shouting and getting crazy service. It was chill, quite, but very informational.

It was broken up into 6 speakers each of which talked on a different subject. Dreams, Roots, Exposition, Sexuality, Money, and Them! The first subject made me start thinking of when I was little and how I thought I was ganna be a missionary to Australia, and how now that looks just crazy, but what if it wasn't? The next one Roots, the speaker Jody Wells for one is awesome second it made me want to read the bible more, fast more, and do whatever I can to make my roots stronger and more powerful! Especially in doctrine, I just want to know MORE!

The 3rd speaker Dr. Littles spoke on Exposition... Sometimes you just have to get over your past, take yourself out of the picture and do God's will! After he spoke God just fell down in the place and I couldn't stop crying and worshipping God! My biggest fear is that I get in the way of the real reason Im here and thats just to be God's servant, but the best way to avoid that is by taking my self out completely. My ministry isn't really my ministry at but rather God's!!!!!!!

Saturday morning was the next topic, which was sexuality. It was discussed through a panel that answered question the congregation texted in. A lot of questions about marriage and finding that special someone were answered. Also dating and being single. That always makes you think. The next subject was money ahhhhh Not even a subject I wanna talk about lol! The last one was called THEM...which basically talked about us in the world! We are always the odd ball out as christians, and we want to witness, but don't wanna shove things in people's face. There is nothing wrong with going to college, getting an education and putting career as a priority, but there is something wrong when it become your first priority.

Matthew 6:33 Seek ye first the kingdom of God!!!!!

Doing what you do on a regular basis, but doing it for God's glory not your own. Thats my motto for now on. I feel called ministry and regardless of what that ministry is and whether I'm fulfilling it or not I can fulfill it in a sense, in such a way that even if Im not doing exactly what I feel like Im called to do right this very minute I can always being doing something, anything for His kingdom. Steps, thats all they really are, steps I have to take in becoming the person God has called me to be!!!

This weekend was not what I intended it to be, but I got word, conformation, and a peace that God's will, will be done just got to do my part now, as much as I will then!!! AMEN<3

With Love,

Ally